Deja Vu

I can't believe this is happening....again.
I didn't know it could hurt this much. My heart aches constantly, and beats so rapidly & so often... I feel like it's going to give out at any moment. It's like a hole has been punched through my chest, and there's nothing I can do to stop the pain, or to stop the tears. They're like rainfall, once it starts, I can't stop it. I didn't know I could cry this much. I want nothing more than to go home, or to go back knowing this was coming and gotten over it THEN instead of now. I know that with time this will heal, but this one is going to be hard....REALLY hard. I didn't see this coming, it's like the floor just vanished from under my feet, and i'm so overwhelmed right now I can't even get things straight. Everything is ruined, all my plans, everything. I don't know what I'm going to do. One day at a time.... these days feel like they're never going to end. Sleep is the only time i don't hurt, but i'm not getting there easily. and just like the rascall flats song.... i literally wake up, and tears just start falling. I feel physically sick, and SO weak. I know everything happens for a reason...but that doesn't make it hurt any less. Thank God for my friends or I don't know what I'd do. I have the best support from Matty, as always, he never lets me down. & of course from my girls, who sit and listen to me cry, put me to sleep and my roomie who lets me just play loud music and cry into my pillow.

I don't know why I'm posting this...it sort of feels better to write it out...it's not like anyone reads this anyways..

I hate this.....and it's only been 2 days....

You wanted pics...here's some pics...

***PICTURE TIME***

So I have some awesome teammates. Who are VERY entertaining.

Two of which are freshman, and I love them like crazy! They make me laugh, non-stop. Azlynn, and Marie....

Marie and I like to plank....

Then there's Meg. Love her. My nick-name for her is Maska.
(cuz her name is Megan Baska) On one of our road trips she
had strep throat, got a shot, and had to travel with a mask on.
Put a whole new meaning to the name MASKa!!

....Then there's my boys.... :)

Cliff-
One of my favs. I love the nights that it's just me him && Matty.
One of the chillest people ever!

Matty-
who is one of my VERY best friends down here. :)
He ALWAYS knows how to make me smile, and
makes it his goal to do so if I'm ever having a bad
day. Love him for that. Saved my life down here a
time or two!! Last year, AND this year. Forever
grateful to this one! Love this kid.

Dex

Such a character. Easily one of the funniest!
Alex-
Or what I call him...RANGA or Ben!! He is
my fellow Tongan buddy!!













Steve-

Who I call Kolipoki. My other fellow Tongan. New this year!
He eees my cuuusssin! hahah

It is going to take me forever && a day to get
everyone so here is a pic of most of 'our crew' ...

That's most of them. The girls we only see occasionally. But this is most of us. Exciting i know. I'll put some more up when i get some more free time && new pics.

hope you enjoyed them!!

First Week Of School.

So I survived my first week of school. Whew. It wasn't too bad. I was SUPPOSED to have class every M,W,F at 8 am! But first day she told us we only meet Wednesdays & on test days. SCORE!!! My other classes are online, except for 1, HUMAN SEXUALITY. Which is suuuuch a hilarious class, well I should say teacher. He is so funny. First day he just sat and told jokes for 20 minutes. Ex. What is the difference between a boyfriend && a husband?....45 minutes. Stuff like that. Kinda shocked, but super funny. I will be slaving away in the library every day doing homework. Fml. Oh well.
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hmm what else. Survived the 2 weeks of two-a-days. Nice to have school to get a little break from ball. We had our first tournament this weekend in Alabama. And I saw the hosting schools #1 fan...
A dinosaur on his head && wings!! True fan right there folks...................................................................................................................
I miss my family big time!! :( Especially these little ones...

***Love them so much***
I can't waaait to go home for Christmas.
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Wow, so much has happened since my last blog...Neely & I broke up a few weeks ago...It was hard but a lot of good came from it. We are now back together which is great! Things are buens! So I am happy. :)
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I have some grrreat friends down here so I'm gonna post some pics just for fun...
That's all for now.
(Sarah hope you enjoyed this, cuz you're the only one who knows it exists haha) loBe you.

...Loooong couple of days...

First off, I don't know why I even bother doing this. Sarah, you are the only one who knows this blog exists. Just saying. But I shall do it regardless because my awesome self has nothing else better to do on a Saturday night.

So. This weekend has not been the best for me. Not only did I miss out on going to the lake with my amazing boyf and some friends because of volleyball, but yesterday morning at the end of work outs during conditioning doing sprints I SpRaInEd my ankle!! >:( *grr* I'm so mad cuz now it's all fat and swollen, and I can't play until it's better. Who knows when that will be, hopefully soon. On top of that sucky day, I had to work volleyball camp from 5-9:30 then wake up and work it again from 8:30am-8:30 pm with hardly any downtime!! :(
I don't mean to complain, but standing around on a sprained ankle all day is NO fun. The good thing about it was meeting and coaching some really cute girls! && the free lunch/dinner. Thoooo eating my dinner was not quite as awesome. I ordered a salad, and they didn't give us any utensils with our order. So those of us with salads, had no forks and had to resort to eating our salads like this....
With our plastic lids!! Quite interesting.





Now after that long day I'm just posted up on my bed elevating my fat foot!!


BEFORE this lame-o 2 days I had a great day with the boyf!! Went to lunch with him and some good friends! :D*lovehimlovehimlovehimlovehimlovehim* <3
to end that night, we had a movie night with some of the same friends! Such a great day before these two looong ones!

So, I had a nice little girls day & FIIIINALLY went and saw harry potter yesterday. Oh my goodness it was so good! I love love loved it. I'm now going to watch all of them again before i go back and see it for a second time. (at least that's what i'm hoping to do).



Unfortunately i'm m-m-miissing my bezzdie sarah in seeing that movie!! :( sad day! by the time i get home we can have a marathon!! :D Bwahaha! love yous!

Doing this for you!

I love you and i mizz you like crazy!!
I am a noob at blogging. This is my first time everrr. I really just got this so I could follow my bezzd friend and cousin's blog and post and what not on hers! So who knows how often I'll actually be using this thing. We shall see. It'll be an adventure.